Baby Steps

Hello everyone! I hope you are doing well.

So this last week I have been going to group therapy.  The last time I did it, I went to the sessions about 2-3 days a week, This week I did Monday through Friday. By the end of the week, I felt like I had spent the night walking through an amusement park. Mom said I didn't look well, but I just felt tired.

I really pushed myself hard this week on a mental and emotional level. I opened up to my case manager, I saw a new therapist, and I forced myself to stay in a situation that a few hours before caused me to have an anxiety attack. Therapists that I talked to were right when that said that getting better from this is difficult. But I want to feel better, so I am going to keep trying.

There are a lot of things I struggle with in my life right now. I got overwhelmed by them all, but it is easier if you try to handle one thing at a time. So I was given the goal this weekend to try and get out of the house and draw something. The big goal was to walk to the park and have lunch there. I wish I had a bike so traveling is a bit easier on the legs, but I believe that I can do it. I have made the walk before, so I can do it again. However, it also depends on how I feel. Things can happen.  However, I just want to focus on the positive as much as I can.

Is there something that you have a hard time with? How can you break it down into baby steps to make it easier on you? I believe you can do it if you want to and you try your hardest. Until next week.

Hobbies

Hello everyone! I hope you are doing well.

I apologize for being late. Writing a post kind of slipped my mind this weekend. My mind has kind of been recovering since Friday. On that day, the biggest storm that California has ever had hit us. I am physically okay, with the exception of the occasional mild chest pain, but it hit me hard mentally and emotionally.

So Saturday, I didn't feel like doing anything, and Sunday I tried distracting my mind with drawing. I was able to draw eight pictures. This is impressive for me because as of late, I haven't even wanted to draw. But this time, once I started, I didn't want to stop. It was nice.

Do you have any hobbies that you haven't done in a while? If possible, you should try doing it again just to remind yourself why you liked the hobby. I'll do better next week, in regards to posting. Until then!

Happy Valentine's Day/Single Awareness Day!

Surprise post! Hello everyone.

I just want to say a few words. Thank you to those that were around when I first started writing. Back then it used to be just a video game blog. Now it has turned into my personal blog that I can speak my mind about anything. I know my audience is small now, but it is an audience nonetheless. I thank you for being there for me, reading my content, and passing it on to others.

Maybe you don't have a Valentine this year. Maybe you do and you are planning to have fun times. Maybe you do and today isn't going to be any different than any other day. Maybe you just don't believe in the day because you only think it's some made up holiday made to make you spend money. Maybe you are someone that feels like you will never find that special someone or that the ones that you do have don't make you feel appreciated or loved.

Well, just know that I, Jelly, appreciate you. I hope your day is graced with sunshine, rainbows, and jellybeans! Whether you believe it or not, you deserve love and happiness. If you haven't found that someone, I believe that you will find that love of your life as long as you don't give up on it. And if you are depressed that you aren't loved, then stop. There are many around you that you may not realize that love you very much and want the best for you. And even in those rare cases that you might not even have friends or family, you still have me.

I love and appreciate you, and I want you live a life of useful prosperity and happiness. Until the weekend.